part 6

"I cling moreover to the prejudice that the natural is how it should be, that one's conduct will in this way naturally effect the natural world, in interactions, in causes and effects, each rebounding and echoing onwards, in a fitting, but not necesarilly harmonious pattern. In other words, to be naturally unhappy is perhaps better than to force yourself into a false, fragile euphoria, arising from a faked confidence. And at least we can depend on unhappiness and pessimism; its stolidness and omnipresence acting as a solid base, predicated on the undivided self, a bulwark of sadness."